Imposter Syndrome

It starts with a blush, then a turn
And you freeze
Don't know what to say or do
It's not a big deal, it's too painful to fail
That's all

In deep Of the pool
Wonder how did I fall
And if I can swim at all
I'm not a big deal
I'm too painfully real
That's all

Unable to internalize what you achieve
React to certain stimuli like you've deceived
Experience intensity, fear false esteem
Evidence of competence, nah don't believe
Vicious circle diligence, can't leave it be
Obsessing over detail to the nth degree
Success is never yours, you're a fraud and a thief
Accustomed to anxiety, work til you bleed
Still you feel you faltered, you let down the team
Undercut by wrecking your own self-esteem

Feel you don't belong, it's in this song
Why don't you sing about it
Everything is wrong and lingers on
It leaves you dwelling on it
Feel inadequate and you don't fit
You'll get found out about it
Can't accept a compliment
Not if your life depended on it

I'm a fraud
It was luck
I don't know what it took
A mistake, twist of fate,
I can't deal with this praise

And I freeze

Wallow in a sense of inadequacy
Playing down your input to hide what you feel
Ruminate on feedback, you can't leave it be
Imposter feeling loster and they're gonna see
Every time you're it you think you're shit
You take no credit for it
You should really talk about it
Off your chest regret about it
Even if you're with a hit
You're gonna sit and sweat about it
Worrying about the aftermath
When after that, they ask you bout it
It's times like this you want to hide

Calm down don't mind the voice inside
But everything is alright now everything is alright