Lonely Nights

I'm so afraid
I can't feel anything
I don't know what to say
So I crawl my way back to the shade

This heat's too much
My hands are shaking
These people all around
Make this isolation worse

I never felt so alone
Than when I think about home
It never felt good
No matter what they said

I could never go back
To welcome that attack
'Cause even now
I can't handle crowds
But still I will say

These lonely nights have been
Killing me slowly
Every time the world stands still
Can't you hear my stuttered heartbeat grinding
It's the last sound left to kill

Ain't it a thrill
To be the last one standing
After you doubt yourself
But everything hurts
'Cause dammit I need to sleep
Perchance to dream
For once in my life
For in that sleep
Most dreams go to die
And you lose control
When you can't feel yourself
And you've given up hope
You're on your own
And you feel like you've gone insane

These lonely nights
These empty days
Just drift away into the weary gray

These lonely nights
These empty days
Just drift away but in your heart they'll stay