I Need a Break

I been tryna get it right
But
I don't even wanna fight
And
You gotta make it through the dark
If
You wanna make it to the light
Dang
I guess you don't know me at all
Cause if you did you would call
If you did you would pick up your phone and you'd send me a text
You know that I love you
I hate that you left
You know that I'm broken
I gotta just vent
You know that I'm hopeless
And only pretend that I'm happy
I hate that I lost you
But look what it cost you
Investing time in all of me
I was investing time in other things
You was always tryna help see
That I always had a chance to be
Somebody different from them
I'm sick of playing pretend
I'm sick of only this pen
I'm sick of all of these feelings
I'm sick of finding fake friends
I'm so sick of putting my all into things when they only just end
I'm sick of holding that in
I need a break from this life
I need a break from this strife
I need a break from this heart
I need a break from this art
I need a break from myself
I only tear me apart

I just need a break
From it
I'm so tired of fake loving
Tell me what's it gonna take from me
From me?
Cause I don't wanna chase something
If I'm only gonna break from it
Yeah I just need a break
I don't think you got close to me, you only ever seemed far
And I don't even know why I'm writing this
Guess I'm just healing my scars
I'll never find me a replacement
I want you here in my arms
Wish you were here in the physical
You only here in my songs
I wish I was telling the good
I only ever share wrongs
I never tell people I love them
I only ever write songs
"He always puts people above him"
That's what you said to your mom
"This guy he's so different"
I'm sorry girl but you was wrong
I'm no different from him
I'm no different from you
We all come from the dirt
We all gotta choose
We all end up hurt

I just need a break
From it
I'm so tired of fake loving loving
Tell me what's it gonna take from me
From me
Cause I don't wanna chase something
If I'm only gonna break from it
Yeah I just need a break

I can't help but think if you're listening
I'm sorry I couldn't get past it
By it I mean all of our differences
I refuse to be different to save us from crippling
Cause being a person who lives off opinions of others is something that I have no interest in
Don't be indifferent
You know the truth
If I'm being ignorant
Girl so are you
Yeah
Yeah you know the truth
I'm not being ignorant
That's why were through
You never got through to me
But I hope I got through to you
And you choose the angle you view me
I may have over reacted but you've never been in my shoes
You've never felt how I feel so you'd never do what I do
Thought I wrote this for myself but I guess this one is for you