Zzz

I've been waking up thinking
That sleep is for the weak
And sleep is wasted time on dreams

Can I slow down
When my heart is beating way too fast?
Am I somehow stuck between the future and the past?

Every day in my goddamn life
I'm sickly ingesting caffeine
To wire my already over stimulated nerves
Cause that's evidently what I need right?

My pathetic North American existence constitutes
I navigate some imaginary plane of now
That is far harder to believe in
Than Santa Claus or your choice of deity

I feel so far removed
From tangible elements of humanity
It's as if I'm wedged between my television screen
And endless jacking on

I've gathered that time is money
And money is power, but I have neither
Time doesn't exist, and it shouldn't
But it controls me

I'm writing these words as a passage
To find a path rather than endless forks
Cause uncertainty can certainly hurt you
And it will

I cling so desperately to a hope
That one day soon
I'll experience a paradigm shift in my mind
And promise myself that I'm due for a come up