Home Isn't Home Anymore

Decide if this is still her life, even if I'm gone
I'm medicated and can't speak on us
The season's fading out
And I can't find my home
Or find out what that means to me

But I'd give it all to let it in and feel again
(Search for the heart of this existence)
It's a facade I'm living in a better place,
When there's dreams that I still seek

But would you still give it up and run away in the end
Cause I am just so sick of faking every
Single face while we pretend who we are

This time all the flames are pouring out,
But I'm stuck inside this hole
(A ball and chain and I'm so invested)
So despondent from this scene
It's a fabricated mess,
(Please don't take it out on me)
And the messages all say to go home
(Just leave it and go home)
And throw this life away
I like to pretend I'm a better man, but I'm not
Do you wanna stay and see everything
When I know that I'm still weak

Or would you still give it up and run away in the end
Cause I am just so sick of faking every single face while we pretend
Cause I am a ghost, and all that I've become is what I've hated most
I won't wait to run away

From the moment I stepped in the room
I could see that your eyes lost their color and their glow
And now I wonder if there's something I missed
Should I stray from the kiss that could save us now before I'm gone
From the moment I stepped in the room
I could see that your eyes lost their color and their glow
I know now there's something I missed
If I stray from the kiss, will I sever everything I love

Would you still give it up and run away in the end
Cause I am just so sick of faking every single face while we pretend
Cause I am a ghost, and all that I've become is what I've hated most
And I won't wait

Would you still give it up and run away in the end
Cause I am just so sick of faking every single face while we pretend
Cause I am a ghost, and all that I've become is what I've hated most
I won't wait to run away