Guardian Angel

They say everyone has one of these,
but no one else gets down on their knees and pleads to the Almighty
to help em with their greed, to help em with their needs
In that aspect of my life you could say I'm in the lead
but supposedly I've fallen,
in Feedback I was barely able to keep on crawling
what's funny is the persons never seen me bawling,
Hmm, and I'm wondering why you got to be my guardian angel
Why you got to see my life through a different angle
if we're meant to be more like Jesus, why don't we wear Jandals?
What's an interesting life if you can't
handle the negative times coming at you?
if once or twice you didn't look like a fool?
and if the house full, then full house move out then way
I'll take over for a day,
but wait how can I handle that remember
that line in the hospital room shoulda been flat
my pockets shoulda been fat
but instead you'll find a white
substance that can take your life in a glance
keep giving your body one more, one more chance to die
sometimes I wonder why
how am I still alive?
does life have a purpose?
am I willing to work for it?
get in the filth and dirt with it?
work so hard it hurts the next day to go and get it?
when you struggle with addiction through your affliction
you see that through the contradictions people still listening
your loved ones missing it,
it being the you, you used to be
but they have to realize one day you got up and you grew
and p.s. to everyone who stuck with me, you're my guardian angel too
and I love you, I love you