Damages

This place just does not sleep
It's so wrong just to rest too long
Until when can I hold on
Fumbling my way through every turn
It seems endless
And it scares me to death
This is where I've fallen
Not just once but many times
Enough for me to think of giving up
For countless times I've felt terribly tired of this
It's a wonder I'm still breathing

I had been doing it so wrong
It should not be like this all along
All the words all advises I refused to believe
All the things all the signs I chose to leave unnoticed

It's a self-inflicted pain
I feel like I'm the victim yet I'm the one to blame
Sometimes, I've cheated my way through
But it's myself who I've betrayed
How do I endure this feeling of regret
While still not knowing what's right
I still lose sight
Even if I keep my eyes open

What does it mean

Is being saved better than being safe
Does a cure feel better than feeling well
Learning everything the hard way
A price I have to pay

I'm still in this place
And I cant make it out
What if I don't really want myself out
Don't tell me I'm insane
'Cause I know
That all that I've seen just did make me fit
To live to see what's yet to come
This I know
That all the things that used to scare me
Now are the ones that keep me up
All the reasons
That used to make me want to leave
Are now the same reasons I stay

No one can ever learn
To find their way on their own
If they've never been lost

What does it mean

Is being saved better than being safe
Does a cure feel better than feeling well
Learning everything the hard way
A price I have to pay
Is being saved better than being safe
Does a cure feel better than feeling well
Learning everything the hard way
A price I have to pay

This place just does not sleep
That's why I'm awake
This is where I'll suffer
This is where I'll be