My Life Twice

They never match my steps

Tired of living a life full of regrets
Feelin' in debt
Writin' these words hopin' to make a difference in yo day
Know you gotta lot to say cuz
All you do is pray

Sometimes we try to play the game and it play back

Like every memory I tried to suppress
From way back

Some of my people facin' charges
I been facin' facts

Playin' w fire'll get you torched
Like Johnny Storm

I gotta knack for errything taboo
And it's all inclusive indecisive and elusive in my claims
Nothin' ever helps the pain
But I can't get enough

Even so I'd rather move Swift like Neji
Unlike these dudes makin' noise like
Barrington Levy

Like they really Shyne

This feelings heavy
Stayin' ready to die
My spirit Big but I can't help
Feelin' small against the odds

Will I make it this world
Got up out depression on my own
Don't you dare question my tone of voice
I never had one to begin with to be heard
Watched so many tables turn
In the hood and in the burbs
While I urned for more
My sense of urgency came from everything that I never knew

Things could be good and poof
You right back where you started

Van Gogh a starvin artist makes you wanna scream
Cuz this life is but a dream but you still searchin'
For the meaning behind ya reasons the drugs workin'

And you under the influence of ya purpose till it's curtains and you certain this is what you wanna do
Nobody feel it like you and yet they never get it

And by the critics I'm unforgiven for passing my limits
And projections they done set for me
They never match my steps
Tired of living a life full of regrets

Feelin' in debt writin' these words hopin' to make a difference in yo day know you gotta lot to say cuz
All you do is pray

Why?
Ya minds playin' tricks on ya
Thinkin it's yo fault

Stayin' in doubt
Pickin' at flaws that were never there

Unaware to yourself that you were never fair

Getting my mind wrapped up in things that haven't happened
Has always been one of my greatest strengths
The goal used to be rappin' for checks
And women given me sex
Now I see the effects
Tryna become one of the best got me stressed out
Watched old friends turn to foes

Not errybody
Can play they role with a ego the size of a black hole

Fiction or fact
I always got my own back and I ain't lookin' back
They into fakin' real still lookin' to give me dap

Done with entertainin' those tainted by they greed

I'm unable to give you everything you need
Without saving some for me

I got my own problems
Need my soul freed
Let me breathe

That's why I'm never out celebrating
With nameless faces

Just more time wasted
On
Useless information

Only round' those wishing me well
Ignorance became bliss in the abyss that I fell

When I slipped
I let the demons prevail

Drawing conclusions chasin' dragons while I'm draggin the pen
Seeing illusions of grandeur through sin
Painting pictures with revenge
In my dirty vans havin conversations with nobody in dark rooms was the norm

They say a pictures worth a thousand words
I rarely see the worth of half having to be shared if it never worked
At the end of the day
You gotta know ya worth
I'm gifted with this curse

They never match my steps
Tired of living a life full of regrets

Feelin' in debt writin' these words hopin' to make a difference in yo day know you gotta lot to say cuz
All you do is pray

Why?

Ya minds playin' tricks on ya
Thinkin' it's yo fault

Stayin' in doubt
Pickin' at flaws that were never there

Unaware to yourself that you were never fair