Soldier on

This one's from the heart, yo

I'm done
I'm trying to avoid looking at this gun
But I can't help but notice everyone is having fun
Me? I'm just living on the road
And I don't even wanna go to Cali no more
I'm digging up my past trying to find out who I am
I'm trying to live a semblance of a life and be a man on my own
Though I got a family, I'm alone
I got a crib, but I can't say I have a home
I'm trying to live but I can't live on my phone
I'm trying to lift the world but I can't do it on my own
Wishing I could go back and be somebody else
And you can keep the wealth, I just want my mental health
I don't want nobody's help, I just wanna go to hell
And be done with it all, trying to run from these walls
But they're only getting smaller. They're closing up and water
Is filling up my lungs; trying to run but I'm haunted

I got the weight
Of the world sitting on my shoulders
I got the weight
Of the world sitting on my shoulders
There's no way
You can hold me down
Baby I just soldier on like
Da da da da da da
Da da da da da da
Da da da da da da
Da da da da da da
I got the weight
Of the world sitting on my shoulders
There's no way
You can hold me down
Baby I just soldier on like
Da da da da da da
Da da da da da da
Da da da da da da
Da da da da da da

I ain't trying to chill, I got some shit that's on my mind
You shouldn't wanna either, you don't know me, I'm a liar
And a coward, and I'm powerless. I shouldn't be alive
There's a good reason why I'm avoiding your eyes
Just saying how it is, I ain't trying to be live
I got my own issues, I ain't trying to inspire
I'm trying to figure out who the fuck is Zacharia
Is hell a state of mind or a physical fire
I'm dying and I haven't even started trying to live
So why did I decide to put the iron to my lid
I thought that all the hatred and the anger would end with me
But I see parallels with my kids
My irises are scanning for a sign I might've missed
My hand is on a cannon, and I'm inviting death to kiss
I started with a dove, but I repeatedly fucked it up
And now I've got no love, no luck, and no trust at all

I got the weight
Of the world sitting on my shoulders
There's no way
You can hold me down
Baby I just soldier on like
Da da da da da da
Da da da da da da
Da da da da da da
Da da da da da da
I got the weight
Of the world sitting on my shoulders
There's no way
You can hold me down
Baby I just soldier on like
Da da da da da da
Da da da da da da
Da da da da da da
Da da da da da da

Do you even see the darkness that you're sitting next to
Could you stand to look inside my mind if I let you
If you stayed around me, could you smile
Or would my dark energy be fucking up your vibe
My attitude changes like the flooding of the Nile
To a drought in the same breath, suppressing my smile
There's people in my place, they're living my life
And I'm behind a window, watching it pass by

I got the weight
Of the world sitting on my shoulders
There's no way
You can hold me down
Baby I just soldier on like
Da da da da da da
Da da da da da da
Da da da da da da
Da da da da da da
I got the weight
Of the world sitting on my shoulders
There's no way
You can hold me down
Baby I just soldier on like
Da da da da da da
Da da da da da da
Da da da da da da
Da da da da da da

It's the one and only Gobah, ladies and gentlemen
Now known as Aq Xico