Where Was I

Yeah mehn
It's that time again, let's go
Where was I?
I hope you all ready?
Where was a I?
We gonna dig deep on this one
Where was I?
More thing to say
It feels so good to be home again, let's go

For you it's just another night, for me it's just another day
Reflecting on my childhood past, there's still some stuff I need to say
The pains lodging in my chest, regrets I know I need to change
The enemy I need to check, I'm off my knees no need to pray
To clear all what I need to do, go overseas and feed the troops
Hold up, before I go overseas, some people here that need the truth
Man, I feel so negligent, it's evident I need no proof
My cousin he got shot and killed and landed on the evening news

Funny though, all the days I seen him and we would speak in school
He always said he had my back, so busy thinkin' he was cool
I never told him he was screwed, I never gave him hope in Christ
I never told him he was bruise, so he could fix his broken life
In other news, I dropped the ball, meme was of a broken past
My best friend from my childhood falls, I wish I could've rewrote the past
With all the time we spent together, I never knew he was so depressive
He would put a bullet through his head, and even though attached with his eye

Yeah, where was I?
Had the help and t I me to give him the gospel
I just never did it though, where was I?
Uh, where was I?
Never wanna make that mistake again, uh
Anybody I'm close to I wanna make sure
I show him the love of Christ before it's to late

Uh, I thinking about my relatives, my uncles and my aunts the same
My nephews and my cousins too, reflecting on how I was raised
We did so many things together, since we was kids a lot has changed
I guess we took a different path, I focused on my college grades
After that I hit the road, with microphones and lot of rings
And now the only time we speak, is funerals and holidays
I used to be content with that, but now my heart is not the same
'Casue evertime I see my folks, I'm thinking about the locks and chains

The emptiness, I see the hoes, they drink and smoke to block the pain
If I'ma break the secret code, they need me close so I can pray
And demonstrate the love of Christ, it's time to give my life away
I gave it to the public right, now I'm climbing out my private space
'Casue mehn they need me just as much, as such and such
Such a rush to grace the stage, and grab the mic and touches up
To make a face to sacrifice, I need to make so long, farewell
Happy to say goodbye to all my comfort and hello to all I need is grace

We're am I? Yeah
We're am I?
Yeah uh, all right here now
I got y'all, I promise

Me and Trey, we had a talk, of fame and talking favorite first
We sat down at the table talk
I listened close as Tray expressd, his great concerns for Christian Rap
Mehn everybody is chasing press, is journey to a numbers game
They all chasing fame and success
I shook my head and nodded twice
Like, yeah, you right, then he raised a question
I signed up rap, what do you do?

And he asked it with such great respect
And I ain't feel no kind of way
He wasn't trying to debate the facts
His heart was pure, I felt the deep concern blazing in the chest
So I thought about it, and I replied, I love my wife, I love my kids
I preached the word without a doubt
Beyond the ground and accomplishments

He said, are you making disciples?, are you changing the life?
Are you investing your time outside of what you say on the mic?
And mehn, that was food for my thoughts
A truthful thing again you so nice
The question's how much am I pouring?
Outside of the stage and the lights
My priority's shifting, now my days and my nights
Engaging so lost in my family, neighbors and saving a life

Yeah I'm back refocused, yeah
Back to making disciples
Back to giving my life away
I ain't just step out on the stage, uh
See, it's easy to do that
A lot of parks to come with that
But I'm ready to roll up my sleeves
Be the missing piece, that I made, yeah