Fading

Old habits die hard ain't nobody grieving
Doing something wrong is always easier than breathing
But I must be having fun the time keeps fleeting
Either that or I'm just numb to everybody leaving

One on one meetings
Me and my demons
Where the help defense
Imma keep reaching

Maybe it's my fault and I'm just giving off the wrong idea
I ain't in the giving mood when all my loss is in the mix
Taking matters into my own hands so I can get a grip
She said she ain't looking for a man and I'm already hip

I read somewhere my generation don't leave tips
But they like music so I know they like to read lips
But everything you read you shouldn't just believe it
She sent a text to me I know it doesn't mean shit

Fell in love for once she got the makeup so how I'm the clown
Every time she drunk the only time she liked to keep me round
Only saying us because she kinda like the way it sound
Member cutting up and then they had to shut the block down?

Was a wild child you gon see me pop out
They say money makes the dresser but that's not style
I can't even feel the pressure from the dog pile
Cuz my dogs been leaning on me for a good while

Mama told me treat others the way you wanna be treated
That's why I'm so cold you niggas must wanna be defeated
They want me to fold can't give a fuck like I need it
Imma call it bold but you can feel free to call it conceited

Where the real fans
Where the real friends
They be on thin ice I don't think that we still kin
Praying for demise because they wasn't filled in
That ain't no advice they tryna make my will bend

Old habits die hard ain't nobody grieving
Doing something wrong is always easier than breathing
But I must be having fun the time keeps fleeting
Either that or I'm just numb to everybody leaving

One on one meetings
Me and my demons
Where the help defense
Imma keep reaching