Ain't Relapsing

I see Your name see Your grace
I close my eyes seek Your face
Lord knows I've tried to replace
Everything You've given to me
I try to go hard on my own
I try to take credit for it
I like to keep secrets of my own
And no I ain't relapsing but I'm headed for it

Look if I don't put this work in
Get to working my steps
I don't know about you
But for me it's life or death
I wanted to write this song
That hit up on the track
But instead I'm just telling you where I'm at
My Savior
My creator
My inspiration
My final destination
My source of my innovation
I prayed while I was making this song
And He told me look
You making it harder
You trying to read
From a different book
You so divided
You think that your life is so exciting
That you writing about your children
Going to get people to buy it
Well try it
But make sure when you go in the booth
You tell the truth

I see Your name see Your grace
I close my eyes seek Your face
Lord knows I've tried to replace
Everything You've given to me
I try to go hard on my own
I try to take credit for it
I like to keep secrets of my own
And no I ain't relapsing but I'm headed for it

Man look at all these rhymes I made
Look at all this time I spent trying to get paid
Man look at all these children I created
And look at all these buildings I eventually evacuated
I came from nothing
But really did I
I mean my mama kept me fed
Was I living a lie
And given the opportunity to make something great
I put the breaks on the food
And left my soul on the plate
But I ate
And I ate well
But that rich folk steak will make your ego swell
Man he won't tell
Yes I will lest I fall
Bless my Savior I got called
Let it marinate
My broken dream
Became my faith unseen
And my faith in that city Queen
Left me dying to breath
I relied on the trees and fire water
For my higher calling
The choir singing
But the congregation ain't responding
Raising the roof but I forgot
That I could raise the conscious
It's hard to tell the kids
To never be afraid of monsters
When these hotel windows getting smashed out
I try to tell them be quiet
Try not to lash out

I see Your name see Your grace
I close my eyes seek Your face
Lord knows I've tried to replace
Everything You've given to me
I try to go hard on my own
I try to take credit for it
I like to keep secrets of my own
And no I ain't relapsing but I'm headed for it