Do Better

I knew you for 18 years but we never met till the 17th
When you put the liquor down and started to stick around more
Ironic I started to get around more being less me a little more you
Introduced to the black juice telling good lies over bad truth
Tryna have what you had Took an oath on a stack like a bible
Stayed in school timer i dont wanna rap for survival
The tragedy's poverty where I'm at is a cycle I write what I like to Steve biko
Started to believe in my self they think ego
That's a side of me you never knew I'm tryna be a better you
You were an alocholic so i'm an alcoholic
Father like son guess I couldn't avoid it
Only quit liquor when I can't afford it
Picture me a binge drinker slumping in the toilet
Started with the boyzen I shouldn't even go there
My dreams headed nowhere only my dreams nowhere
I put on my family genes started smoking my family trees
In my Fathers ashes right now the fact is I was nothing like you
Still I became you when I hardly practiced
You meant the world to me but your hard to map out
You never gave me the time to understand your Atlas

It's like we knew each other but we never met
Words I should've heard but you never said
And What brought us together had to be your death
We'll do it right in the after life or whatever's next
You died in your sleep's like I'm still dreaming
When I started to love is when I found it's meaning
Love's never needed teaching
You just love you don't need a reason
And i've gotta do better
Gotta do better
Gotta do better
Gotta do better
I've gotta do
Gotta do
Gotta do
I've gotta do better

Im a grown man now I understand you a bit more
Hands down you taught me family means more
Than anything in this world and though you never said it
Your actions showed you love me you just couldn't put it in words
Cause from your Generation saying it you look soft
I had to become a man when you took off
I had to think of a plan but it took more
To keep me motivated than the lies on the gram
Life is what you make it we all tryna make a life
Others can't take it instead choose to take a life
They own tryna right my wrongs the wrongs have you left
Thinking that there is no right
But this is your life only you can live it
I found peace in the gin and the crucifixes
If you tryna be rich they call it true ambition
But if you tryna be yourself that's too ambitious

It's like we knew each other but we never met
Words I should've heard but you never said
And What brought us together had to be your death
We'll do it right in the after life or whatever's next
You died in your sleep's like I'm still dreaming
When I started to love is when I found it's meaning
Love's never needed teaching
You just love you don't need a reason
And i've gotta do better
Gotta do better
Gotta do better
Gotta do better
I've gotta do
Gotta do
Gotta do
I've gotta do better

I've never been the greatest son
I pray my son will be a better one to compensate you
But I'm positive I haven't met the one
Looking at my love life I fear that day may never come
You hate to me say it I won't get into relations
Just to struggle with the basics
I don't even have the patience
But you always had the patience with me
My graduations what you waiting to see
And I swear it's coming but for now Its music
Everything or nothing maybe I'll regret it
Maybe you'll say you told me so maybe I might make it
Which ever ending I hope you know I'll never lie and say I did it for you, I did it for me
This is My dream I just pray that you live it with me
If I could see the ending as clearly as the beginning
Would I make the same decisions look at what i'm risking
A Career without a pension just know i love you
This thing fail you'll be the one i run to like hello girl