How It Goes

I remember when my head was nappy
Young buck, no bucks listenin to lil scrappy
Walkman tucked, my belt bucked, lips chappy
Wondering why mama had me, if she wasn't even happy
Money was the issue, heart cold like an igloo, had nobody to vent to, mama had rent due
But nobody was there, nobody even cared
Shots fired so much nigga, I never got scared
Truth or dare? Always picked double dare
If they knew the truth I'd be a puzzled square
Cause they couldn't, wouldn't figure me out, I just never spoke out
I just kept it to myself, it was bad for my health
Emotionally damaged, how do I managed this
Covering these scars like a bandit with no bandages
So many emotions that's twisted and bottled up
Drinking Henny now to get twisted and open that bottle up
Focused on the grip from the pain on my brain, thats just how it goes
Everydays the same tryna get up out the mud but it came with the rain, thats just how it goes
Theres power in my name not the chains or the fame, but its hard to tame thats just how it goes
Swerving out the lane to remain just as sane as when I came, thats just how it goes, Yeah
Me and Los, we was runnin them streets
Telling the OGs when we saw the police (5-0)
Los was like brother to me, tough times
Became men at the age of thirteen, Yeah

You remember when we use to play ball? Playing horse
Doing stunts, poppin wheelies until we fall? Good times

Man when I heard you got hurt, I was bout to spazz quick, flip shit and beat some ass
I got furious so fast, no gas, or Paul Walker
Moms said it was a crash real bad, said the Doctor
Man, I heard it was a bloody scene and they saw your bones
They had to cut off your muddy jeans and your brand new foams
I'm just happy that your smiling and alive man
I almost cried man, you could've died man, but you survived man
I thank God man, I thank God man, Goddamn!
Focused on the grip from the pain on my brain, thats just how it goes
Everydays the same tryna get up out the mud but it came with the rain, thats just how it goes
Theres power in my name not the chains or the fame, but its hard to tame thats just how it goes
Swerving out the lane to remain just as sane as when I came, thats just how it goes, Yeah
Look, Lord forgive em mixing up the sinning and the penning with the rhythm
Wishing my dependance on these feelings weren't appealing
So when I get to heaven ima grill em if he willin
I got many questions that im bouncin off this ceiling
About his law, the allure of kicking doors seem so strong
And why is givin help out to the poor seem so forced
The DC snipers almost turned my home into a morgue

I couldn't sleep that night, we on the floor and pops had to leave night to hit the store
Just so we could eat that night, we needed more

Lesson learned when we eating aint speaking on Jordan fours
Life or death, daily study cuz lifes a test aint no rest, it can get ugly and lifes a mess so we stress
My cup looking muddy got ice on deck but we blessed, crashed in the business we missed the wreck
Focused on the grip from the pain on my brain, thats just how it goes
Everydays the same tryna get up out the mud but it came with the rain, thats just how it goes
Theres power in my name not the chains or the fame, but its hard to tame thats just how it goes
Swerving out the lane to remain just as sane as when I came, thats just how it goes, Yeah