Sleeping With Monsters

About two hundred miles
The distance between you and me is spreading
And the less I have, the more that I can taste it
Like the blood on my lips
Like the salt in the air
There's a pull to a place that is not there
"You should never commit," she said
"'Cause you'd never follow through, even if you wanted"
To find the one who can make these bad dreams stop
Though they are self-inflicted; deserved
I live to watch things fall apart
That's why I'm sleeping with monsters
Because there was no room under the bed
And in the closet, all boxed
And the skeletons won't share what is rightfully theirs
As a child, we see ourselves as strong and everlasting
But the older I get, I swear, the more I feel it...
Like a rock on my chest, like a weight on my back
There's a time and a place, but now it's gone
"I wish you were here," he thought
But she never heard a word, because he didn't tell her
To be the one who can heal a broken day
Just with a whisper; a breath
I'd live to watch them fall asleep...
But I am sleeping with monsters tonight
Since there was no one else at home
And it's so quiet there, no sound
And the ringing in my ears becomes a constant now
It's just noise
I squeeze my eyes, but sleep won't come
I live in pages now; in words
And the same words that I read, I would never say
All the same words that I read, I would never read
To have just one who can understand my mind
And help to calm me down with touch
'Cause I can't stand to sleep alone
So, I am sleeping with monsters from now on
'Cause a monster is better than a ghost who disappeared; moved on
I'm takin' numbers over names; there is no shame in this
Grow up, who cares who else has come before?
Just keep your pride in check; move on
Nobody cares where you have been
I sleep with monsters now
Grow up
Just take a number and move on