Interlude

I look up at the sky
An I ask my self why
Why why why
So why is it that every fuckin time I look at you
I start to feel the same way I always do
Looking back like where started with who
Why I choose this route nothing new
I don't give a fuck about anybody's else's fate but mine
I want to stop breathing just end the time
I wanted you to stop playing an just be mine
You wanna go than that's just fine
Just remember you can't keep lying
I've had to Come to realize that I'm dying
One day weather I like it or not
It's something I haven't felt a lot
Something I can't get over
It plays in my head on repeat
With death you can't Compete
There's nothing you can fucking say
It just comes on a certain day
Than your body must lay
Buried 6 feet deep
Buried 6 feet deep
Than your body may lay
Buried 6 feet deep
Watching my mother weep
So your body can decompose
That's just the way it goes
Don't be afraid to die
I tell my self trying to fucking lie
But it brings tears to my eyes
No matter the screams an cries
I can't fill this void in my heart
Keeps coming tearing me apart
Ever where I go I can't see far
I can't see what my future holds
Is it at the bottom of this hole
I'll never know till it takes my soul
Everyone around me is worried about packing bowls
Or who has the nicest set of fucking clothes
Can you take that with when u die
I let out a sad sigh
Couldn't go back to getting high
Needed to find a purpose in life
Have kids and find a wife
Wouldn't that suffice
Just know this worlds a fucked up vice
An your life is the ultimate price
Not everyone's gonna play nice
Don't ever think twice
Don't regret the choices you have made
Because One day those memories fade
They Come across you like a swift blade
So figure out who you wanna be now
While you still fuckin can
Put down the gun in your hand
Don't pull the trigger to your own fate
It's ur life an don't be late