B.F.

We as humans vision shit that could have been
Stewart Ave is a place that I had used to live
But I'll go tell you all a story
Bout the day I was to horny
And it costed me a memory
That haunts me to this day
I was just 19 living carefree
With a shorty who was always hopping on me
We had used protection twice
On the first and second night
Until she got obsessed with soaking up her ovaries
But this took two to always tango
Tried back shoots and even tried aiming low
But once you feel it all inside
Got you rolling back your eyes
You say fuck it to the drugs
Cause this a different type of high
But we were kids our self, and we were good at that
You considered all your babies, just your 3 cats
And it's exactly cause of that I gained a certain type of hatred
Now my dick ain't running wild, now that shits domesticated

It's both our faults, both our faults, both our faults
I ain't placing blame
Cause we both are wrong, both are wrong
Both are wrong

Now fast track, it's been a year I'm still hitting it
To us the only sex is skin to skin friction and
You on some new job shit, you go off shit
Out of town for two weeks for
Some training bit
Like damn
This little thing we had was getting pretty off the rails
We couldn't see the signs like we was only feeling brail
But maybe time apart would bring us back to that attraction
We were seen as a whole, but the bond was on some fractions
So ten days pass, I'm chill, catching up with lads
She's missing me I'm missing her, this texting shit is trash
See I miss that woman's touch, some feminine company
See I'm feeling myself, but you the one that stay loving me
But this the juicy part, just a test of tenacious
I guess you could say this turned a shitty situation
Cause I was on the toilet, mid afternoon
Remember all the details even down to the stool
Back and forth texting, with the light on
My pants down
She texts me
I text back
She three dots
Then long pause
You cut off
Just midway
What you going to say
Then sends a picture
That makes my
Eyes wide
It wasn't just a picture of a fucking flashing titty
And it wasn't any filter with some hearts asking miss me
But instead it was a stick with emojis that was happy
The stick was positive said congrats you're a daddy

It's both our faults, both our faults, both our faults
I ain't placing blame
Cause we both are wrong, both are wrong
Both are wrong

Now your back, with your skin glowed up
Big ass smile, like you so cheered up
But once we got to talking we agreed we wasn't gonna have it
We would go through the pain till we both became callous
But like magic you changed my mind, a different type of grind
Was ready to love and care for this child of mine
Told my parents about it, moms was in parade
My pops gained respect, said a real man stays
Even though you told me I could leave without repercussions
Hormones were acting wild like you on something
Crying over small stuff, telling you are loved
The mother of my child is nothing but built tough
Until the night we got to talking dinner with your parents
Your pops said something that got you incoherent
He or she could have an allergy to those felines
So once the kid is born leave them behind
Now I thought, this was common fucking sense
The kid or the cats this was blood or some pests
Till you siding with the cats, on some maybe we ain't ready
I'll make the appointment, the timing just ain't steady
Different realizations, but was willing to accept it
But real deep down, felt abandoned and depression
And the night before the day always plays in my mind
Kissing you goodnight, and when I go to kiss goodbye
You push me away and when I look you in the eye
You said Jamesmikel
Go to sleep and just accept it
The more you show emotion
The more you'll be affected