Not My Fault

Wake up every morning, count my blessings and go
Another clean getaway, out running my ghosts
Roll up out a warm bed into the cold
Never turn on the lights, disturbing my folks
Stumble to til I feel the cool tiles on my toes
Face the eyes of the enemy's reflection alone
Shave away the overgrowth, no moss on a rolling stone
Never believing im leaving, just going home
Spit DNA in the sink while im brush my teeth
Dress so fresh & so clean could never tell what's underneath
Touch the cheek of the angel of the morning
Crack the door & hear the prayers of my children while their snoring
Broad shoulders carry the water, a cross to bare
My bags are packed I'm out of order, but I'll be back
Shut the door, lock it safe, start the car
Can't look back too far, that's where the mistakes are

Where have I gone im lost no direction
Lace up my chucks run from tribulation
Ive got no choice, no voice, lost all patience

Ain't nothing sober on my mind
Bartering time, cursing fighting giants
First sign of cracks in my walls, im out of here
I battle tears, know that it can't wash my sins
Part apologizing part of me silencing hiding fear
If I show the true colors of my emotions
Weed becomes their seed choking before they grow up
Spoken for and shut up, knew that life too well
It's mine to tell, counting days in this cell
Im the sacrificial first born, burden on my person
Passed down from my father from his, the cursed ones
Im spiraling caught in the lessons taught
Trying to find my footing, slipping on shaky ground
On the way down all I know is that it's not my fault