Anxiety

All these feelings that I got,
Man I wish that they would stop,
Cause I'm feeling on my own,
Even when im not in alone,
This Anxiety, that's inside of me

When the dark is all I see,
And the light is all I need,
And I know this aint my fate,
So im praying that he takes,
This Anxiety, that's inside of me

You see...
Growing up, I was taught life, was nothing but a dream,
So I got no alarms, Like I'm sleeping in, cause life aint what it seems,
Cause lately I feel so in-between, between my pride & self esteem,
It's like I got me, myself, and I, but they all wanna be on different teams

So What?!!

I'm just getting to real, like I cant believe that I said that man,
Decapitating old friends cause I just don't know where they heads at,
Plus my visions all that I see,
Got projectors on both eyelids,
Tryna buy some land by the sea, Pull a Steve Jobs and call them both i-Lands,

Damn,
Time is all I got, Please rewind the clock,
And when it stop,
Lemme take a walk, To clear me from my thoughts,
Cause it's easier to get angry then it is just to forgive,
That's why being alive is so easy, but its so much harder to live, man...

Sometimes I don't say nothing,
That just mean I need to say something,
Cause that smiles just like a poker game,
Sometimes I be straight bluffing.
But... these the cards that I'm dealt with,
No show & tell but I'll tell this,
Like Kanye selling seafood,
Yeah man I'm that Sel-Fish.

Ugh!
All I gots myself, that's just all I need,
So for real,
I don't need your help, Give me space to breathe,
Knowing me,
Back against the walls, I aint got no doubt,
I'll be free,
Like El Chapo boy, I'll find my way out! Ay...

Tryna live in the moment,
But catch myself in my past thoughts,
All I need is my team,
And we aint hiring mascots.
All I need is some answers,
So why the hell would I question,
If everything happens for a reason then why the hell am I stressing, cause...