Essex

You know, they say everything's bigger in Texas, so
Maybe
Maybe you'll blow up

I'm running out of options
People say they with you
Then they turn around and drop it
I been through the trenches
I'm surprised that I ain't popped yet
Gave my heart away to some people that didn't want it
I got it back, but the pain ain't stopped yet
I'm gettin used to this, happens a lot yet
I give it all I got
In every single song
Yeah, I know that people gossip
I'm sick of all that talking
Sick of all these flakes running around with my name
And I'm mad all these fakes gain fame in the game
And I'm pissed that the real ones don't see lights
I'm talking stadium, great heights
Like
I wanna see us all win
Supposed to be same team
I ain't feeling it
Everybody mad bout their own little thing
Ain't we supposed to love and not hate?
But hatred is the name of the game now
It ain't even about bars or spitting flame now
Everything is all about who better than
I'm glad pandacafe is made of better friends
Give me one good reason not to quit right now
Like wow, everything discouraging
I'm proud of the crowd for sticking with the sound
And going insane
Every time we step out, uh

And I know, yeah
That this is not an easy road
It's hard life to live
So I'm just driving down Essex

Sometimes I think like
If I had never started this
What would it be like?
I don't know if I would even be alive
Depression would have eaten me alive
I thank God for the people he surrounded me with
And I think of all the memories astounding me with
All of the people that were in and out
And all the ones who really stuck with me through everything
It's abounding me with
Joy and peace and love and trust
I'm sorry to the ones that I left in the dust
And I forgive the ones who didn't show me love
Even when I did what I could to build them up
Not everybody understands what I'm doing
Yeah, I'm a Christian, but my music
Isn't just for people who already have a faith
I make it for the people who were lost along the way
And need to know that everything is gonna be okay
There's always sunny days that come after the rain
And when it rains, it pours, I get it
I been through it
I wasn't ready for the sunlight
But now I know that everything is going right
It gets dark, but there's more life
On the other side of all that you feel
To make Smiling, I needed Too Real
Detour