Winter of Cicada

I made some plans
And wrote them down
For both of us
They're in a book
Beneath my bed
With a photo on the front
The pages read
Of things we'd see
The ones you wanted most
I'd take you to the places that
I always said we'd go

And how can I be sure it gets better?
I've written every word, every letter

I just want to be wherever you are
Sure I can be whatever you want
I know it's harder to give than to get
You get what you give
And that's it
I just want to be
I just want to be

A kid I was
A teenager
A foolish one
The polo shirt
I'd always wear
You begged me to rip up
You pierced my nose
I shaved your head
You came to all my shows
And everyone would always say
Don't ever let her go

And how can I be sure it gets better?
I've written every word, every letter

I just want to be wherever you are
Sure I can be whatever you want
I know it's harder to give than to get
You get what you give
And that's it
You just need me
But I wasn't there
I know I never treated you fair
And how much longer
Will I regret
Taking the bet
That you'd quit?
I just want to be
So rip me apart
And put me right back
How you want
You just needed me
You just needed me

So how can I maintain?
You occupy my brain
But still I wait for you
It's the best that I can do
So dress me head to toe
Prepare me for the cold
The longest winter yet
Forever in regret
Forever in regret