The Anteroom

I saw the face of God
A mouth and a pool of blood
And I am a boring man
Asleep in a bathtub
Her body can make you think that colors are brightened days
Like Maggie Nelson said
The color the [?]
Here up in the statute for
A death I will never know
The silence of silences
Is all that I've ever wanted
When I woke up in the tub, invisible rapture
Circling around my head
A voice screamed

You wouldn't want it
If you could see the pain in the anteroom
You wouldn't have parted
But nothing on this side was built for you

And now you're laughing
Would you laugh when they play it all back?
And in the movie of your life, you only speak in one scene?
And when the door opens, you say
"I've been thinking about it my whole life long"
And when they ask you what you mean
Your lips are moving, but the mic's not on

Thought it was a pool of blood
But then when the camera stopped
The whole thing evaporates
A voice with no body shouts
The money has all run out
What we used to call a job
Is now handled by machines
You can die in peace

But you wouldn't want it
If you could see the pain in the anteroom
You wouldn't have parted
But nothing on this side was built for you

And now you're laughing
Would you laugh when they play it all back?
And in the movie of your life, you only speak in one scene
And when the door opens, you say
"I've been thinking about it my whole life long"
And when they ask you what you mean
Your lips are moving, but the mic's not on