Entropy

Tonight, I'm taking this somewhere I can hide
Preparing myself to cross a line
Assuming the alcohol I want
Reacts the same way in my blood
While I stare at the blinking tv fuzz
I see my reflection, in the glow
Like some holy reminder to take it slow
But I'm feeling the pressures of getting old
And I'm worried I'll do it all alone

It was never meant to last
Like the sun was waiting to collapse
Into a masquerade of black
No longer fighting entropy
Our bodies hopelessly at peace
To search the dark for clarity

Now my failures that held me have let me go
And set me with strangers in a shrinking hole
But the force of gravity has taken hold
And it's pulling stronger in other directions than below

Another Summer's come and gone
And the landscapes changing colors
I don't regret the call, though we never said we missed each other
When did the love in us, become the same as drowning
I've strayed but I'm not lost, I still want someone to find me

You were the bandage to all the cracks bleeding through my heart
That I couldn't close
I was the devil seeing how much I could control, without telling a lie
We had our separate fears
And for Several years I've tried just let you know, just to let you know