Perfect Narcotic

It's the look in your eyes
That keeps me alive
Feel the knots in my stomach
Tied up so tight
It's what keeps my heart beating
A perfect narcotic
I just had a taste
And now I can't stop it

I'm hooked on this feeling
Of life clear and free
Like oxygen that fills my lungs
You're the air I breathe
Although some people object
I know this is what I need
They can point their fingers all they want
It will never bother me

Will you be there with me when I hit the dirt?
Will you be there with me so I don't get hurt?
Will you be there with me when I take the fall?
With you right by my side I'll survive it all

Twisting and spitting up
Stains on the carpet
Shaking and clasping my
Hands in the darkness
I smash all the mirrors
In hopes of catharsis
And pick up the shards
To slit both of my wrists

It's what keeps my heart beating
The perfect narcotic
I just had a taste
And now I can't stop it

I hear my phone ringing
And I stop to breathe
My parents are worried
They've called the police
I come to my senses
And fall to my knees
Then everything goes black
And I start to seize

Neurons misfire
And I start to convulse
You're the last thing I see
As my head hits the floor

Will you be there with me when I hit the dirt?
Will you be there with me so I don't get hurt?
Will you be there with me when I take the fall?
With you right by my side I'll survive it all

Cuz now I'm strung out, broke, and I'm a mess
Full of these thoughts I can't express
Cuz my lexicon is limited
These melodies are all stolen

From some song you played a year ago
We were in your car, it was soft and low
It moved me in a special way
I turned and saw tears on your face

You told me all your greatest dreams
And your darkest fears and what they mean
I felt so safe there in your arms
I never thought we would grow apart

Now the memories all fade away
As the Chemicals evaporate
And you'll return to who you were
And I'll just learn to be ok