Paranoid

I feel paranoid
Like all of the time
And it's always
Inside of my mind

I wake up everyday; I look left, I look right
And it continues this way through the rest of the night
I'm always cautious of what actions I take
Because I know what kind of mess I can create
I know there are people watching over me
So that means I can never truly be free
I feel like I'm in a cult that I cannot escape
I got a lot of enemies who want me to break
I always wonder who's behind the curtain
Lots of key witnesses so I can never be certain
Everybody looks suspicious so I'm on the lookout
They're always telling me I don't have the mental clout
I'm on meds, cause they help to relieve the edge
I'm just a normal guy out to get this bread
I feel like a threat to society, they want me dead
All because I'm not normal inside of my head

I'm paranoid all the time, paranoid all the time
And it's messing with my mind, and it's messing with my mind
I'm paranoid all the time, paranoid all the time
And it's messing with my mind, and it's messing with my mind

I'm always picky on what words I say
For if one is wrong then there's a price to pay
I have a constant feeling that's always there
And it's destroying my life, I'm so fucking scared
I got very few friends but lots of people I know
I act happy and I put on a show
But it doesn't fill the void that's in my heart
And all this constant drama is tearing me apart
I'm just trying to succeed, that's the american dream
I'm here to disrupt things and call a scene
They're trying to isolate me so now I'd be runnin'
Livin' with paranoia, it ain't no fun
You'll never understand what pain I have
You think I'm just a kid with a lot of sass
Well I have shit to say, and if you don't understand
Then you probably just do not give a damn

I'm paranoid all the time, paranoid all the time
And it's messing with my mind, and it's messing with my mind
I'm paranoid all the time, paranoid all the time
And it's messing with my mind, and it's messing with my mind

I've been 5150'd like so many times
Those moments still be affecting my mind
I just want the pain to stop, there's nothing else
And I'm trying hard to seek that mental help
But when mental help is shit and they cannot help you
Tell me, what the hell are you supposed to do?
They think it's magic, snap fingers and you are cured
But it doesn't work on mental pain this pure
Tried to find a solution, but alas, I could not
It always feels like it's 100 degrees hot
And there's 65 pounds of weight on my shoulder
I'm 27 and I feel like I'm older
It's all thanks to paranoia, leaving me deranged
I just hope that things will eventually change
So I can have all of this burden lifted off
And live life without it being this tough



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Writer(s): T. Karras
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