Random Thoughts, Pt. 2

I'ma start by saying I ain't been myself lately
Self-isolation, I just been so stressed lately
'Cause I'd rather go through problems being all alone
But I been feeling like I could use some help lately
And even saying that shit just kinda felt crazy
I mean could God just be giving me a test maybe?
I hope that's the case man and soon this feeling's gone
And I'm sure the ones I love they can tell lately

'Cause I ain't been the funny guy that you're use to seeing
Much less smiling as of late when you see him
The interaction's smaller, I ain't tryna give you reasons
But I'll put in all in writing, as of now I feel defeated
Believe it, when I go in these meetings it feels strategic
Seeking for you to need 'em, in hopes of an agreement
Keep it, we don't need it, ain't no limits on this genius
And I understand your reasons, man you motherfuckers greedy

Capitalizing off that platform you're providing
You got the power to change some niggas lives and
You decline 'em, 'cause you just look for profits
And it's nonsense, you know that we ain't got shit
And you wonder why you don't see brighter horizons
Look in the mirror, don't you think that you may be the problem?
'Cause you'll be coming face-to-face with some talented artists
And want them to pay you hundreds or thousands of dollars

How the fuck you expect me to be paid already?
If historically the artist had just came from very
Low-income environments to seek a better life
But you hit us with a price like we made already
And don't get me wrong, criticism I respect it
Except when I know the methods to your objective
Now how's it feel to see the success of your rejection?
And that same scheme is all that you motherfuckers left with

But I wish y'all many blessings
I wish y'all many blessings
Listen

The last time I came to y'all with some random thoughts
I was in a bad space, I was going through a lot
Of situations I'm now thankful for and they really taught me
Who's ya real friends dawg and who's really not
X'd them right out my life for good, then God you brought
Some other people to inspire me when I was feeling lost
And though our ways are going separate, pray we don't lose connection
Just know you hold a special place in my heart

If you know nothing else about me, please don't doubt me
I'll say it loudly, or write it proudly, no matter who's around me
So please don't you ever question my sincerity
And please know you must mean a lot if you're hearing me

'Cause I find it hard to express myself, I guess it helped
Realizing I had to tell you girl
How your presence just made me feel
But for now I'm off that topic 'cause it's some real
Things I'm going through, ain't holding you, been feeling so hopeless
'Cause I been showing you I'm notable, just tryna get noticed
I put my all into this music, am I further or closer?
But it's part of the process, I'm just tryna stay focused

Doesn't happen overnight, this is part of the journey
Now appreciate both the highs and lows of these moments
And you'll really cherish it when you get all that you wanted
Looking back remembering what it's like to have nothing
Right! And No Previews was just an introduction
With no comparison to the material that's coming
It's funny how you blatantly show you're out of comfort
Keep revealing true colors, man I really fucking love it

And some of you niggas cropped yourselves out the picture
You see me drop No Previews, you unfollowing niggas?
You must've heard part one to this and got offended
But if that's the case I'm surprised you actually listened
'Cause it was never both ways in this quote unquote friendship
After any elevation you was all in ya feelings
What you mad 'cause you can't be persistent?
Only a matter of time 'fore you start some shit then you quitting

How 'bout you stop complaining 'bout your fucking life and go fix it
But you'll prolly be forever stuck hating on
But you ain't the only one, all you niggas can get it
Any nigga who was switching all you bitches gon' feel it, nigga