Mentality

Got that Kurt Cobain mentality, sipping pennyroyal tea
Still not collecting royalties, but family shows me loyalty
Everyday want to know what I'm up to
Took some time off and think I'm going back to school

Never been cool so I guess It's more of the same
Life has changed so much but I have to take the blame
Pop a pill to go to sleep, never gonna catch a wink
Never gonna show it but it's fucking with my brain

Read a lot of text, focus on psychology
Just want a way out like full frontal lobotomy
Freud didn't leave much but text and a complex
Thinking he was wrong but don't take it out of context

Vexed, by all of this shit
Always take a stand but man I just wanna sit
Wanna give up but it's not nature
Filling up my lungs then I'll blind you with the vapor

Same ole shit, but a very different day
Did a lot of work, still not getting paid
Is it my mentality, seeing the brutality
Eyes are open now, vindication's seeping out of me

Pissing clean for THC I'm looking for a job
Fucking with this apple like my name was Steven Jobs
Dropped out of college
Re-enrolling in the fall
While I lay in wait I'm feeling like I'm 3 feet tall

Thinking back on days when everything was different
Before my diagnosis life was just a picnic
Heavy in my head and heavy on my heart
Looking at it now as a catalyst to art

If we can't reflect then what the hell is there to learn
Even if at times it feels like a goddamn burn
Graft on it now but I'll never be the same
Scars just build our character there is never shame

Same ole shit, but a very different day
Did a lot of work, still not getting paid
Is it my mentality, seeing the brutality
Eyes are open now, vindication's seeping out of me

Learning more and more that I can live in solitude
Feeling more calm than's evoked from the color blue
Standing taller now than the lobsters on my shoes
Kicking on back and listening to tunes

Music is my saving grace
Take me to a different place
If you ever want to race, find me ahead setting pace
Nothing I'm afraid to face, except when I loose it's taste
Don't you dare call it a faze, do it till my final days

Building back the walls that were so torn down
In this game of thrones I wear a crown
Always repay debts, shit that makes me Lannister
Got the framework now, but making my on character

Same ole shit, but a very different day
Did a lot of work, still not getting paid
Is it my mentality, seeing the brutality
Eyes are open now, vindication's seeping out of me



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Writer(s): Trenten Jarvis
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