Can't See Myself

Yeah
Looking in the mirror I can't see myself
I been crying out to God, telling him I need some help
Way too focused on this music, I forgot about my health
Then I burnt some bridges, cause of dumb decisions
I used to be out here just to get them digits
But, I realized that it's deeper than that
It's deeper than rap
Now homie take a seat in the back, I'll tell you
When I see the fan base growing everyday
When these kids tell me I'm showing em the way
No matter what I gotta get it, no time for delay
Too many people in the world give up on their dreams
Everything ain't what it seems
What goes on behind the scenes
Got em feeling weak, to the point they're shot down
My only way is up, headed to the top now
I been studying the greats, learned a lot to stop now
I'm a student of the game, can't afford to drop out, yeah
Some of y'all wonder why I go through it
Why the hell do you pursue it?
Why the hell you wanna do it?
You don't know what it really is, you never took me serious
Look at the bigger picture of you really that curious, aye
You all blinded and really close minded
A lot of people can't see past what they're eyes show em
It's just a matter of time hold up, watch and I'll show em, Yeah
hold up, watch and I'll show em

Looking in the mirror
I can't even see myself,
I been crying out to God, telling him I need some help
Someone take me to the clinic, I ain't really feeling well
Too late to back out, now I'm in it deep as hell

I'm confident but you know deep down I have doubts
Made it to my current state here without handouts
Try to understand now, I been tryna stand out
But I get too worried about what the people think of me
Anxiety is kicking in, I just wanna breathe it in
Gotta disappear with my pad, I'mma need a pen
Been at home a few months, all of that was too much
They feeding me information I ain't even used once
Homie I ain't playing 'round, everyday breaking down
Always dealing with some drama
Why have I been feeling bothered?
Told that I'm a disappointment
Scheduling all these appointments
When I reach the day I make it, I doubt I'll even enjoy it
Down to the point I even contemplated quitting this
But I thought about the music, all of this is do or die
In the end it's you and I
Got me feeling too alive
So I push and persevere, do it to the fullest
Yeah they try to knock me down with imaginary bullets
I pull it and take em head on, I shred em in half
I ain't stooping to their level, nah I'm better than that
The best revenge is massive success
I'm getting em back, and letting em have
A taste of what's to come
I'm doing what I'm here for, the job is getting done
Yet I look into the mirror and don't know what I've become
Yeah, I don't know what I've become...

Looking in the mirror
I can't even see myself
I been crying out to God, telling him I need some help
Someone take me to the clinic, I ain't really feeling well
Too late to back out, now I'm in it deep as hell