Blame on Me

She put the blame on me, the blame on me
But she going all around playin games on me
Told me she was real, but actin fake on me, actin fake on me

Idk if it's my heart or if it's just my mind
But every-time I see her she got me thinking of all the times
Idk if it's her fault or if it's really mine
I just feel like i'm lost in my own mind

I smoke these smokes and drink these drinks to keep my mind at rest
Ik she knows but does she really know about the rest
When we're together I really feel she knows that I'm the best

You know I just wanna take time to invest in myself
Sometimes I really find it hard just to collect myself
I wanted her and only her to just to respect myself
But she got me feelin like I wanna wreck myself

Yeah she made my heart break
Made me feel like a mistake
I thought she might just be the one
But I was wrong for fuck sake

She says accusation after accusation
I always find myself tryna find a ventilation
So I can get myself
Out of this shitty situation
But I can't cuz I'm always runnin on frustration

Looking like a fool when you say to me
All the shit like you love me and you really fell in love with me
But it's all fuckin fake
Get the fuck out my face

It's gotten to the point where wanna be alone
Just stay at home be all on my own
Got my friends callin' my phone
But I always act like no bodies even home

I distance myself
So I don't fuckin hurt myself
Keep away from people
Just so I can feel myself
I don't need nobody else tellin me
That I'm not fuckin being myself

I wanna go away
Run away
Come back for a better day

Wait for this to go away yeah
So I don't
Play myself
Into another fuckin heartbreak

You know, I can't be the only one
She said loved me then she left like i was no one
Just another person that she used to know
Yeah you know I don't fuck with none of that hoe shit

You can fool him all you want but you ain't gettin me no more
I got a new house, new bed
But I really needa new car, new head

I see the way she looks at me
Tryna to make it like it used to be but
It can't be
No no, it won't be
I just need to move on and
Don't look back for any of those memories

I always seem to fuck up
When I fuckin open up
Tryna get me in my feels
You must really got me fucked up

Seems like the only one
Can't be the only one
Fucking hurts all the time but it's really nothin new

Now I'm all alone
Just sittin here at home
Thinkin bout the days
I should've never fuckin texted you