Passionless

I've been barely hanging on, all my life, finesse
Turning my back on the ones I said I'd protect
All the Xanny in the world can't make me forget
On my knees, callin to God, lay my soul to rest
Through my teeth, mutter these lies, all that shit a stretch
She think I'm a nice guy, you don't know me yet
Prolly don't know half the secrets that I've slyly kept
If I didn't have these drugs, I know that I'd be dead

If you wasn't gone for months I wouldn't be a mess
If I didn't know the plug, I'd be working shifts
Custys hitting up my line, I be curving it
I can't let nobody see me when I'm hurt like dis
Know it ain't easy, but I never thought it'd burn like dis
Lose a year of my life for every girl I miss
Purple syrup, ice cubes look like amethyst
Ay bro, you chillin? Yuh I know that I could handle it
Was out for drugs, ended up with bans on accident
Bitch I was up, now I'm wondering where the passion went

I've been barely hanging on, all my life, finesse
Turning my back on the ones I said I'd protect
All the Xanny in the world can't make me forget
On my knees, callin to God, lay my soul to rest
Through my teeth, mutter these lies, all that shit a stretch
She think I'm a nice guy, you don't know me yet
Prolly don't know half the secrets that I've slyly kept
If I didn't have these drugs, I know that I'd be dead

I be talking to my shadows in the nighttime
Told you that I'm doing good, that was a white lie
I was gonna tell you, waiting for the right time
But I had to fail you, can't stand dis life of mine
Jealousy, never cease, always haunting me
Getting cheese, telepathy how the xans calling me
Felonies, lawyer fees, dis shit too much for me
Everything, testing me, these thoughts won't fucking leave