Tides

I can't be alone since this thing inside me takes over just like an abscess
Tried so many times to fight you but still I remain hopeless, cannot win against myself
All that i love fades in a cold fog
The colors of life run right before my eyes
It's only me and my demons
I can barely feel them shade my mind
Like the tides they return again and again, until there is no hope left to find
Please make me stop thinking before there's nothing left of me
I keep running, running away, running away from myself
Until my goddamn lungs collapse
I became such a stranger to myself
And noone here can understand me
This is no imagination
This is as real as you and me
Don't turn your back away
I need to shut these voices down
All this thinking, ironacally brought me exactly to the place, I always feared to see
The voices continue to complete their work
But I refuse to keep on living in this fucking coffin
Right now, nothing can fucking hold me back
I'm done to be forced to play this game
Once again, i got no price for all the times that i survived
It is the same shit, no matter where i go
The hands of death, they grab my neck while he just laughs at my face
These thoughts will soon be the end of me
Yeah i am sorry but i can't draw hope in this room
This vision, that my eyes reflect
Shall burn to motherfucking ashes
Let's see what's under the surface