Russian Roulette

Im tired of being misled
I wanna put one in my head
Will I live or die today
I gotta find another way
But right now Ima put one in my head

Im tired of being mis
People be claiming it is what it wasn't
But fuck it I promise this shit ain't for nothing
I wanna put one in my
Stressing about it ain't gonna fix nothing
But fuck it I don't give a fuck about nothing
You know what it feels like to wanna be dead
But at the same time you're the best that has lived
Backstabbers bold now, its metal to ribs
Then they wanna know why I did what I did
I don't know why
I even bother
They want the past me; Aaron Rodgers
This the new me
To all who knew me
It wasn't me that
You were fooling
My life a movie
And I'm at the part where the life that I lived
Put me right at the top or put one in my lid
And everyone hates that I wanna be dead
But nobody is helping me clear out my head
That shit is funny; y'all funny as shit
But I know that y'all finna get what you give
Watch when I drop of the mufucking grid
I think I am gonna put one
Nah fuck that I ain't finna give up

I'm tired of being misread
Im gonna put one in my head
I think I wanna die today
Im just kidding I'm that guy today
But I still might put one in my head

Okay I'm right on the edge of seat
Fingers been itching I think they're in heat
So many thoughts and I just wanna sleep

Pull it, I heard it
Its empty, reload it
Repeat again and again til its over
Maybe I shouldn't have did this shit sober (Huh, why)
Cause Ion even wanna die no more
I've never even been this before
Man life's a drug that I can't buy no more
Man I just wanna breathe in, leave out all my thoughts
Let me put this shit up before I get caught
I cant risk getting 302'd
Cause denial is the only thing that keeps me coming to
My senses
My common sense is endless
But I'm commonly labeled ignorant
Cause some people are mad that I'm sick in the head
And that I wanna alter my body with lead
And honestly that makes me laugh
How you gon judge what you can't comprehend
And how gon say that you been where I been
I'd rather do something y'all don't recommend
Im tired of being mis
I promise that I'm gonna make that shit end
And I promise I better not hear that again
See yall fear what yall lack and thats all
That I have so yall try to attack and its driving me crazy
And I rather be somewhere where yall are not at
So I and let it just drip on my lap

I'm running out of pencil lead
When I do Ima put one in my head
I'm probably gonna die today
I actually hope I see another day
I'm really fucked up in the head

Im probably gonna die
I'm really fucked up