Hidden

Look into the mirror, what do I see
Face full of terror looking back at me
Try to explain my feelings, no one listens
No assistance, since the age of thirteen on a mission
Of self destruction, no self discovery
Suddenly the mirror image distorted from underneath
The mask covered me, sickened, Hidden was conceived
Personality divided bore fruit of deceit
Torn asunder, two minds, two lives
No one understands, no one shares the same plight
Hear the thunder, lightening bolts tear the night
Scream at the sky but it doesn't hear me right
Embrace the darkness, now all smiles fake
Two faced with two fates, two dinner tables, two plates
The dichotomy is real, one face accepted, one forbidden
True story of a boy who grew up to be Hidden

Hidden, two faced, distorted
Hidden, true face contorted
Almost thirty years, still got nothing to give
Happy is a myth, don't give a fuck, let me live
Hidden, Two faces, one name
Hidden, Flip the coin, join the game
No one ever understood when I tried to let 'em in
So I keep it to myself, only when I die will it end

The truth is, I'm ruthless, no consideration in this brain
Only pain, pure disdain for those who live a life full of refrain
Not restrained, life is attrition, Hidden I remain
Not contained or acclaimed, I sit and listen to the rain
Alone at home, but this home is not my home
Not my own, I share it with fraternal clone, all unknown
I've been staring at these walls for twenty years
Never knowing which face to wear to face my fears
Screaming please help me
Substance drowns the tears, no I never cried once
So many drugs I only ever tried once
to truly be healthy
All the rest of my life been blurry, memories fading
Always a hurry, one step from death, enemies waiting
Never take me, forsake me, inside I stay
No metaphor, the raven nevermore, go away
Gone away, heart of the grench but it never grows
Faced the world so much, face became hidden it never shows

Hidden, two faced, distorted
Hidden, true face contorted
Almost thirty years, still got nothing to give
Happy is a myth, don't give a fuck, let me live
Hidden, Two faces, one name
Hidden, Flip the coin, join the game
No one ever understood when I tried to let 'em in
So I keep it to myself, only when I die will it end

Hidden, two faced, distorted
Hidden, true face contorted
Almost thirty years, still got nothing to give
Happy is a myth, don't give a fuck, let me live
Hidden, Two faces, one name
Hidden, Flip the coin, join the game
No one ever understood when I tried to let 'em in
So I keep it to myself, only when I die will it end