Adult Hood

I fade away
I need a way

116gshitlilnigga
We getting older, day by day
Childish shit blur, fade away
Toys to money a better way
Hopes to see a brighter day
This year we all turn 18 man
Trash dat shit you wanted to stay
I couldn't wait till I turn 18
Reminiscin' back in May
Just wanted green and to get pay
Lyin', back talkin' 'member shit, that I would say
Wish I could go back and fix them wrongs
I tripped up man I fell astray
Sell them grams I had to weight
Almost an adult for brighter future man I needa pray

I fade away
I need a way

Sat on the sofa, my cousin in coma
I pray for the boy man, this shit ain't over
Cut all the fakes out, this shit be over
I live for this shit man, dreamed about Rover
Click on the pic and I'm gone
I am getting my money no fraud
Shit ain't the same when you gone
You better now work on
Cover myself with a pon
Kickin' me out yeah I'm gone
Look at you like a icon
Beef with me strike on

Reach ur ends when you were kicked out
Talked it out on a bench heard u cry and shout
Listenin' to every word from ur mouth
But when I moved away our relationship went south
Felt all the pain and all the regret
Movin' away was somethin' I regret
Us two together issa perfect set
Now I'm alone is there another to get
Heard you got over me and ur flirting with new guy
My heart locked in ur chest will it arise
You in my mind all the sparks of love dies
Feelin' embarrassed bout how to tell my guys

Heard X died shit fuck me up
Then Elco died that killed me fuck
His tanks styll in my room
Wanna put my body in a fuckin' tomb
Wanna kill niggas 6iine Billy
Grade 12 no actin silly
Learnt to drive no asian KILLY
Wanna kill you wit a fuckin' 9 milli
Swear to God can't deal with the depression and the hate
Seeing demons come to take me I can c their flaming gate
Is this really my damn fate
Is it time for me to break
Actin' all happy smilin' bullshit yo thats fake
And I never wanna c people after the shit they did to me
Bullied before grade 10 thought grade 9 would set me free
Wanna keep the Glock on me
Wanna keep the knife on me
Wanna say goodbye not give a fuck about everyone around me
Cuz they pissed me off and ain't show no respect
They lack the ability to truly represent
To love and hate, all they do it hate
They end up in a trap so easy they're bait
They heads fucked up, they ain't thinkin straight
My heads fucked up, I ain't thinkin straight
People ask me if I believe in fate
Imma ask em right back, do you wanna walk thru gates?

I fade away
I need a way

Lovin' you is like thowin' knives right into my heart
Break apart
This is gon leave scars
Think we went so far
But to you its just a step
I been reminiscin' bout how we met
And I just wanna dye with all the shit thats happenin'
But am I in the right place to make that decision
Almost dropped my faith, and instead I start smokin'
Everytime I see the steps why don't I not climb up
Instead I'm goin' deeper in this pit

We just opened up to sum shit you never knew
This all tru
Somethings we would styll never tell you
88s beef with 116
D-Lo came thru and fixed that shit
You don't know what we been thru
Ya you never to knew
These are sum things we opened up to
It was behind the mic
Almost cryin' at the mic
'Memberin' you is all I can see in my mind

Why did this have to happen to me
Why did this have to happen to me
116gshitlilnigga

I fade away
I need a way