Heaven Blues

Yeah
Lost in my heaven
In her head
In my head
Feeling buried
Ugh
Yeah

Life looks better on poster board
Laying next to a bed
Casket filled with a body
And you ain't breathing, your dead
We never speak this instead
We just talk about life
Sharp pains in the past
All the struggle and strife
That's why I bleed when I write
Through the pen like a knife
And If I end it tonight
My fire'd probably burn bright
Compared to nightmares now
And the art that I craft
People probably seriously
Look back and react
Every time that we laugh
We look up to the sky
We remember the times
Of bonfires outside
Passion burning like ice
Is melting quick and I try
To be understanding of left and right
That's both sides
But if I'm shot dead now
In my clique who'd ride
I'm slipping slowly to the left
Of the road as I drive
Concentrated as fuck
But still I try to stay alive
Fell asleep in my life
But awake in my dreams
They say it's silly to chase this
But I need it

Yeah
I think that as a people we are
Meant to gaze at the stars
Look up, just in awe
Like a feeling from a song
I never could have been more wrong
Feel like I'm played as a cog
In this machine, I'm a log
In a forest, inside
I try my hardest, to nudge back
Like shit
I'm just chasing my dreams
Until one day I'll make it
Got a chance, I'll take it
And I'll grind for it all
Breaking barriers and doors down
Even the wall
I ain't steaming at all
I'm just prepared for my fall
Cause these people are fickle
When they sense that your raw
First your talent is called
Then they say you lost it all
But you work to improve
Shape up, like you got a new do
These things, you've got to do
Just to try to prove
Yourself as who you are
Whether they like it or not
I'm getting spiteful and hot
I'm told to stick to what I've got
But I don't have what I feel
I'm working steady to build

You can't stop me now
I've got what I need
I've planted the seeds
Now I'm sprouting the tree
Getting hate out of me
Becoming one with my self
Putting my old way of life
Back up on the shelf
And I'm dishing this out
To anyone feeling different
From now on every aspect of life I'ma live it
To the fullest and I guess
I should probably address
The fact that I'm "headed off"
Like I slit my neck
Yeah