Crashing Castles (Rough Demo)

I'd poison myself too, if it meant peace
Can't form an addiction
Why can't I please
I'll call you baby if you promise not to call me
But until that day comes I hope that'll I'll just cease
To exist
Cease to exist
Cease to exist
Thats pure bliss
My castle doors are breaking down
They brought the weapons used for sieging
Battle against body, my mind
They formed a troop they made a legion
Cardboard pillars that I'm grasping
Screaming gasping find my strength
But my feet won't move if I can't go the mile, then will I go the length?
The troopers swimming through my moat
The demons drown but soldiers float
I take the meds, creating billows
But luckily they brought a boat
No other choice, I grab the beams, then close my eyes
Begin to dream that my tears will go from oceans motion to a quiet stream
But my sweat and tears have made it crumble
The levels start to break, I fumble
One falls I start to stumble
But the castles then reduced to rubble
I wipe away the dirt and dust
Then Grasp myself, try to stand up
I inhale
Im breathing
I exhale
Im heaving
My sadness turned to rage thats seething
Perceptions red and now Im bleeding
I grab a rock I run, Im pleading
I turn around I yell, Im leaving
The knights and men, they're still proceeding
My visions clear my families fleeing
Wounded by the conscience Soldiers on the ground grieving
Please come back
Mystery land I come alive
In outer space I take a dive
In a black hole so dark and huge a colony could thrive
The men in suits they need their space
Atmosphere will leave no trace
Of the oxygen, living in this pit alone my mind will race
I'll float with grace
And I'll float away
Windless environment I'll glide without sway
Hope when I come back it'll be a brighter day
But theirs no hope for a closeted gay
No beam of light shining off the sun ray
Why float back to earth and stay when a colourful world
Has turned to grey
Encase myself in an frosty comet
Keep my pages of lyrical vomit
Cause no one would understand the shit I write, I'm just being honest
I can't execute the suicide I have planned
I know my mom wouldn't understand
I fucking love you