D.N.D.

I'm in a strange place
Thought I was done with this shit
But since the girl is on my brain
Guess I still got bones to pick
It's been a year since we talked
Or had a whole conversation
As we was texting back and forth I thought of future plans basing
Everything off what we had
Now all that is lost
At the end you chose him
I wondered what was the cost
Bragging to everyone about you
At the time strings were pulled
Now this instrument been broken since that day now I'm through
So tell me why
Yo why the fuck were you cheating
Why you leave my heart beat, broke, cut up here and bleeding
What the fuck were you up to when I was gone on the weekend
What the fuck happened to loyalty that we were both seeking so
I've been lost lately...
Cause I never had a queen that was worthy of my time daily
So I draw back to the pad
Cause I'm done with all of this conversating
Done with all of this time wasting
Done with the hurt and the pain and the stress that I had with all of this dumb dating
Claiming that you only love me for me
Knowing damn well you would never wanna see
Me, winning on a headline
You with another guy taking a whole other seed
Damn
Guess that we'll never be
Goals you wanted so I'm missing threes
Deliberately so I could never see that a relationship's been hurting me
So really I just say fuck it
I ain't know that I been blind the whole time
You blew everything we had like trumpets
So really ima just cut back to the back line
Cause you the reason that I lost trust
You the reason that I lost faith
You the reason I would pick up a pen with these tears that I dread and bled on the page
You the reason that I had hope
You the reason that I count days
But now every moment we had now has passed and I don't think I can find another way
To get you out of my head
Now I'm dreading these thoughts
Cause demons talking wanting me dead
To think I let the flood gates open
Told you everything about my life
Told you everything I wouldn't even tell my parents on the coldest nights
But guess you was just a lesson
I never paid attention in class
But you taught me a new session
To not give everybody that I come in contact with direction
Keep my book closed
Keep thoughts on hold
Like calls that I was never getting
But fuck it
Things change and people change and when it rains we all feel the pain
But it's shifting me to a different plain
So I ain't gon' really sweat it
Honestly I just dead it
Dead the calls dead the texts and dead the things I was stressing
I thought you was my angel
I thought you was my blessing
And honestly I just dead you
You won't hear this but I hope that you get the message