Pain

Girl, get out my mentions
You actin' pretentious
Used me for attention
I'm just glad we ended

Got a razor blade in the depths of my mind
Thoughts too sharp, I've been in my grind
Can't believe I let you waste my time
Used to hate myself, now I'm all 'bout mine

Too much negativity around me
Fake homies wanna kick it like Rousey
Remember back then all they ever did was clown me
Now I got the drip and they all drownin'

Haters like a boat 'cause they ridin' the wave
I'm just tryna leave a mark 'fore I'm dead in' the grave
Nights spent screamin' while I'm cuttin' with the blade
Either that or I'm cryin' with a gun to my brain

Let it bang, y'all don't understand my pain
Red on my walls, homie, no, it ain't paint
I just wanna end it, but I gotta refrain
I just wanna end it, but I gotta refrain

Don't wanna be let down, but I've done it enough
Too many ash stain's and razor blade cuts
So I'm reaching to my waist for that thing I keep tucked
This the last time that I'm holding the gun

They really think that I'm on one
Came on up the scene, made a wave, then my heart sunk
Used to playing games with me, go look out the outcome
Hittin' up my phone now, sorry but it's all gone

I don't got the time, busy feelin' pain
Lookin' at my scars, I don't think they'll fade away
Playing with my head, so I'm aimin' at the brain
Used to be the one they loved, now I'm singin' in rain

I've been sittin' in my room makin' songs and they all bang
Only way to ease the mind when it's all pain
Old friends hit my line, but I don't hang
My anxiety's been pushin' me the wrong way

Tired of waitin', I've been stuck in' the mud
And I really hate the fact that I was never enough
Everyone around me thinks I'm livin' it up
But really all I wanna do is go and drip on the gun