Addicted to Aphrodite

Here I am again digging graves I know
That I'll eventually end up in bang my head like its percussion
Aggravation and frustration hit so hard it turns concussion
Make the same mistakes I've made it seems I never learn a lesson

Roads on which I walk are filled with paths of all temptations
I consciously decide to crash the flight of my relationships
Before I have discerned where I'm planning the destinations
I see paradise in panties and toss the ramifications

Even though I've sailed the sunken ships that this aircraft replaces
I choose to chart on a course and move faster than nascar races
Speeding toward a crash and due solely to my impatience
I'm subject to no restraint and these girls are intoxication

You'd think that after twenty one years a nigga would learn
Shit, Life always seems to fire back
And after shooting shots enough I think that it's finally my turn
Damn, I came to find I've set my own trap

And I can try and fool my peers but I can't fool myself
Front as though it's clear when really fear depletes my inner health
Fear of living here with three babies up in my ear
And know one of em's baby mama, tired of dealing with drama

I've seen this before in life but I still can't seem to behave
I've known that if I let go I'll be victim to no more pain
The strain of my adolescence has slowly left me insane
Addicted to Aphrodite existing as just a slave

Lately I don't like you all, you're giving me a million
Reasons not to want to call I'm living with a lack of awe
That used to lie with you but now the fact is that I can't recall
The Love is lost and my soul is colder than Montreal

I'm used to fussing 'bout others problems I couldn't solve
Become appalled because all my lovers dissolve
Fucking buck'n and duck'n there ain't time for no discussion
I'm quick to dip after busting and act like I'm not involved

(Because) I really think I know it all when I don't
Then I fall end up broke it's the cycle that Im living off
Growing cautions plus putting women in boxes means
I promise drugs'll make me burn my wallet like a Molotov

Im copping potent cuz I'm coping with a lot a probs
We fought I lost you won (hell no)
Only 21 still somehow put myself on death row
I think that I lost my hope a long time ago

And I can try and fool my peers but I can't fool myself
Front as though it's clear when really fear depletes my inner health
Fear of living here with three babies up in my ear
And know one of em's baby mama, tired of dealing with drama

I've seen this before in life but I still can't seem to behave
I've known that if I let go I'll be victim to no more pain
The strain of my adolescence has slowly left me insane
Addicted to Aphrodite existing as just a slave