Grieving

I am so numb, I can't feel anything at all
Wanna kick myself for letting myself call
After six long months, I had to hear your voice

But now it's worse, I'm at my breaking point
At this rate, I'd do anything to be
Half of who I was before you left me
I could feel myself so close to being whole
But now I'm just an empty broken bottle
I, I don't wanna miss you
I tell myself it's easier to just stay mad
They keep telling me to let myself grieve
But grieving won't ever bring you back
You were the worst and best I ever had

I wanna burn the letters that you send
But they're the only thing of you that I have
left
So I'll tuck them away inside some dresser drawer
To save and read when I'm not hurting anymore
I, I don't wanna miss you
I tell myself it's easier to just stay mad
They keep telling me to let myself grieve
But grieving won't ever bring you back
You were the worst and best I ever had

How do you grieve the loss of somebody who isn't even dead
Can't even begin to explain the ways that it's messed with my head
I'll spend my whole life wondering what I did to make you leave

And you'll just say, it's not you it's me
But that's not good enough for me

I, I don't wanna miss you
I tell myself it's easier to just stay mad
They keep telling me to let myself grieve
But grieving won't ever bring you back
You were the worst and best I ever had