Visitor

Last night we just laughed as we caught up
We told jokes about our lives it was awesome
Watching you while you talk left me all struck
God how I miss all our talks since I lost ya

But I get it, you couldn't come to visit
You were busy with your life, I never figured any different
I just wish that this just isn't ending soon because I miss it
I just hate to see you go man
You just got here, lets just kick it

You told some jokes
I smiled while you smoked man
I just hope you love the taste of Winston's
Nah I'm good, you know I don't
And I'm happy that you're with me
'Cause it's getting hard, I'm losing hope
I'm known to overthink like everything
But nah I'm moving on

Where'd you go?
Fuck it I don't need to know
You left me and that's good enough for both of us
I hope you know, you made me whole
You broke my fucking life in two
I get it, life is better somewhere else
But fuck I need you though

Are you happy?
I hope you are 'cause then I'm good
I can't begin to wrap my head around the loss of you again
You left me at my weakest, and I'm seeking light but you and then
I see you in my dreams I can't believe we'll never meet again

Why was life so bad that you just had to fucking up and leave?
I gave you everything, it's fucked up what you've done to me
I dumb to fucking see I loved you but I'm wondering
If all the love I had for you was worth all of the suffering
You know I'm glad for every day we ever had
I'm sorry that I vented on you God
I hope that you come back
To sit and chat, tomorrow night from now

I have to wake up and begin again
I love you God, I miss you dad