Under Grass and Clover

Flashback from the night before
Or was it the other day? I couldn't say
It's all coming in pieces
Before you know, they just fade away

Goddamn, what did you hear, what did you do?
Where did I go, and how'd I get there?
I know I'm too far gone
A deadbeat, a travesty, what's my strategy?

Fuck me, there's blood in my hands
That's nothing new, but now they're shaking too
Everything's soaked in sweat
Here comes the 'forgive and forget'

Who should I forgive? Forget the plan
I really don't give a damn
I just need my fix, I'm dying
Break out the bottle and stop crying

And the calm washes over
My soul drying my tears
Under the grass and clover
A new sense of hope appears

(Walking) breathing exhaust
Hard to keep an even keel
(Shot) boiling mercury
It burns so bad yet I can't feel

(Choking) breathing exhaust
Hard to keep an even keel
(Sweating) boiling mercury
It burns so bad yet I can't feel

(Walking) in a minefield
Tired of keeping my eyes peeled
(Shot) to hell and fried
No heaven, evermore denied

And the calm washes over
My soul drying my tears
Under the grass and clover
New sense of hope appears