Awake

They say emo rap the new wave
I'm a caved in mental institution
With contusions from when I attempted
I love the music so much I couldn't
So I just do it like Kanye used to
In fact I put on my for my city
With my influence
But they won't notice
Until I perish
I wanna take a trip
To Paris
Make out on a terrace
Thinking would I be more successful
If I wasn't embarrassed of my past
I kiss my old mannerisms goodbye
Good morning to a new me
The beautiful manipulator is gone
I'm a new beast
The only thing I ruin are other people feats
How I run circles on they they tracks
When they wrote for weeks
Never loved anyone like I loved Lene
I never thought about her like this
Maybe that's why purple my favorite
I suppose better than green
I could spend all day
Saying things I didn't mean
But what good would that be
The root of all evil
Is a passion for many
Many men wish death upon me
That's plenty
Of the people in my circle
Whether they know it or not
Don't call me crazy
I can see it in your eyes
Funny story
I'm going blind
Boe beat me to the punch with demise
The family saw it coming
So why was it a surprise
When he died
Told my daddy I have trouble remembering
Things about the man he loved most
Because it made me hurt
Dad has no response
Now I feel worst
Should I have opened up mouth
It's cursed with every word
That I blurt
I'm only getting better from the pain
I'll see Mac pretty soon
I just gotta prove myself first
Now let me rest
It's for the best
Let me rest
Hands laid across my chest
Suit pressed
Fresh to death
I'm finally being noticed
It's all I ever wanted

Put ya lighters in the sky
If you tryna get High
Like Bruno Mars Head first
In a sofa
I am so far
Away
I'll come back one day