Crazy Thoughts

I thought it wouldn't be like that
Til she told me put the whole seat back
Heheheh
Time lingers with the feelin in tact
I loved longer than I thought it would last
We grow attached
Til thoughts of the past crept back
Other lovers made me want to escape
It could be that she's the one to blame
But not like she had a gun to my face

Moments show up, course they come up out the blue
One minute she's wifey type til the hype dies like the news
Reachin desperately to resurrect what's felt initially babe
Why try when I can swipe right and it's like she's dead to me
Nice to match you
Love how the stature in your pics reflects confidence, complex
I'm really hopin you're not consulting your friends when you send long texts
We click in screen so I'm guessin it'll be great in person
My heart's been hurtin for so long, maybe you could draw back the curtain
But nuh-uh
Cuz I'm reminded how Michelle yelled for me to leave then come back
In five minutes, then find pictures to a dude on her Snap
Karma caught her a year later, he cheated on her, oh well
She asked me back and I laughed like I was watching Chappelle
Because of that, you could just be the best
But right now, all I want is this sex

I be having these crazy thoughts, crazy thoughts, crazy thoughts
I'm tryna hide
I keep having these crazy thoughts, crazy thoughts, crazy thoughts
All of my life

I know it's no excuse but what you gon do?
I didn't wanna feud but you do somethin new
Like try put me inside when you 8 months due
She in a blue song mood because I deuced on cue
New day, new surprises
Trust flickers, hit the light switch
The dark turn women to Leviathan
I'm kiddin, this applies to men
I just got a sour taste in my mouth from pineapples
I'm fine, baffled you think I carry you like a leather lined satchel
Like you wear the pants, shirt and shoes and I'll be a tassel
Well I'm in no hassle to be a doormat, I've worn that coat
I won't fuck with sheep when I'm tryna be GOAT
Like you can't force me to sing when I ain't feelin the notes
So I won't show no the love if I ain't feelin the part
Yeah, I'ma master the art before I master my heart and these

I be having these crazy thoughts, crazy thoughts, crazy thoughts
I'm tryna hide
I keep having these crazy thoughts, crazy thoughts, crazy thoughts
All of my life

They just wanna fight, they just wanna yell
They don't care about my heart, they don't care about my health
I'm doin my best to speak my truth and be honest
All they wanna do is create conflict
Bout to fall all the way over
Like "Why would I sit on this chair when it's fallin down?"
That just seems like I'm lookin for trouble, ooh
Wait until your head smacks, lips kiss ground
One can only do so much in a team of two
I can't keep all both the feelings at the same time
My hands don't stretch that wide, this work ain't mine alone (Shoot)
Cuz I've been losin my wealth, my self esteem, my self worth
My sense of self, y mi Mexico belt
And I really need that last one
Out here with pants at my ankles, trippin over all potential outcomes

Skit

How many cops to get my laptop?