Backwards So

I am finding myself
In the movie start defeat
In the way you move your feet
In the pieces in between the rows of misendeavors

I melt backwards so
When the ink forgets the paper
When I codify a savior
When I scuff up my obscurities
Scoff them gone, rendered unable to breathe

The statue, she tells me
You are younger than you think
Go to sleep, please

Tonight I succummbed to my ego
Overwhelmed by plastic sins
I smacked of reinvention
My quiet hero, you would hardly understand my position

I slip under so
When the words don't match the speaker
When I no longer believe her
When I pick apart what defined me
And read up close, the lyrics blur the scene

The Mary, she tells me
You are younger than you think
Go to sleep, please, for me

I lean sideways so
Like a stubborn mind surrendered
Like a smooth breeze under pressure
I wish I knew how to unfreeze
But something solid keeps me on my knees

She tells me
You are younger
Go, for me