When I Was a Kid

When I was a kid I believed the world was made for me
Raised to think that I could achieve anything
When I was a kid I thought I'd someday dunk
But I'm just a short Jew who grew to dabble in the funk
When I was a kid I was my truest self
Then society bound me up and I've been stuck in this shell
When I was a kid I prayed that it would all improve
But shit won't change until you wake up and start making moves
Start making moves, but I haven't a clue
I'm just a little fish in the deep ocean blue
When I was a kid my mommy told me I was special
But just like everyone else I got demons that I wrestle with
Dreams that I pencil in, feeling fenced in with these battles that I gotta win
When I was a kid I prayed that it would All start making sense
But life got complexly intense for your simple boy

If it was up to me, we would never age at all

When I started high school we read Catcher in the Rye
I sympathized with Holden, he helped me realize
That I can't go back to my childhood innocence
Gotta face the fact adulting is imminent
In 12th grade, we read Camus' the plague
It said life has no meaning, meanings what you make
Suddenly I understood this is not a rehearsal
And time is trippy how there is no reversal
When I finished college, I felt down and unaccomplished
I couldn't find my purpose, and I couldn't keep my promise
Let's be honest, I can't sit my ass down in a cubicle
With a suit and tie? Fuck that man, that's not musical
Ay, I need to breath for a moment
I need to turn inside out. I d-don't need to be told shit
If it was up to me, is it up to me?

If it was up to me, we would never change at all, if it was up to me