I Feel Whole

It's nice to see you again
And meet you for the first time
I didn't know you then
Don't even know myself sometimes

I'm ready to know you, I'm willing to try
I'm open to show you the troubles of mine

Body's broken, throat is choking
I hang on the words that you don't often say
I try to be open when I feel frozen
I'm blessed in the moments you've chosen to stay

You rode with me as my darkness flooded in
And you sang
Heard it pushing up from your belly and your soul
I held myself from crying now it's under your control
From all these little pieces, I feel whole

My fate has cut me from you
As if it took a knife out and punctured its way through
I feared that this might all go south

I wanted to please you, get under the hood
But I only gave you the best that I could

Your past is present, so unpleasant
My thoughts of the future have darkened my days
Sun is rising, so surprising
It calls you to leave but I wish you would stay

You rode with me as my darkness flooded in
And you sang
Heard it pushing up from your belly and your soul

But you don't sing to me no more
I'm not so sure that I could go without it
Hoping you'd extend your hesitant hand
If you can't touch me I'm not sure who can
You're not always so complete within yourself
But you withheld your problems, took on someone else
Someone like me
Don't deserve anyone like you

You rode with me as my darkness flooded in
And you sang
Heard it pushing up from your belly and your soul
I held myself from crying now it's under your control
If I return in weakness,
if I call and find you speechless on the phone
From all these loving messages I wrote
From all these little pieces, I feel whole