Hope & Hopelessness

I started to think about how everything has changed
Now that there's no lies, things will never be the same
Like how I use to lie to myself about feelings that I had
I'd drown those, smoke those, shove those feelings back from once they came
I thought my only problem was living by myself
But my real problem was me not really knowing my own self
Break your ego down and see what you got inside
Crack that head of yours wide open to save your own health
It's okay to be scared of the future and the unknown
When hope and hopelessness can sleep in the same warm bed
Right away you know when you're not fooling anyone
But don't put yourself down, don't get trapped in your own head

I met a girl in Philly, said her name was Amity
Amity like the horror picture and I kinda sort of really liked her
But I was a coward and so afraid of failure
It's a sea full of fish but I am a lonely sailor
Fishin' for the things that you want to hear from her
Wishin' that you two were cats sleeping in the sun
Listening to her purr and purr with a hum like sirens
Realizing that this bound book has come undone
Now all these pages are flying freely in the wind
Some tree branches catch them, hold them, and are considering
Considering that these pages are full of foolish rhymes
Foolish crimes that could push any man to keep on drinking