Coping Lessons

I dreamt you called
And woke up angry
'Cause ever since you left
I've been going crazy
And I can't do this anymore
It's useless heading down this track
"Cause I stopped drinking
and I quit smoking
But my anxiety came back

I could dream for years
A thousand lifetimes
Without all these fears
There'd be nothing that was
Out of my reach as long as I could
Think it up it'd be good enough
But I can't think about anything except
Everything that's wrong with me so

You push me 'til I fall down
'Til I can't get back up
And still I hope you'll be there
Each morning when I wake up
And I know that I need this
I'm learning how to grow up
To fall down, to fall down
To fall down and get back up

What's the use of words
Without any meaning
'Cause you say everything
Without any feeling
And I can't ignore this anymore
When there's so many things that I lack
When I was younger, I had passion
Now I have to fight to get it back

You push me 'til I fall down
'Til I can't get back up
And still I hope you'll be there
Each morning when I wake up
And I know that I need this
I'm learning how to grow up
To fall down, to fall down
To fall down and get back

Don't tell me to write you another bitter song
Well I'm not going to sit around and
Wait for something to go wrong
I'll take the reins, I'll take control
I just can't do this anymore
There's nothing stopping me
Cause I'm not stopping

You push me 'til I fall down
'Til I can't get back up
And still I hope you'll be there
Each morning when I wake up
And I know that I need this
I'm learning how to grow up
To fall down, to fall down
To fall down and get back up

I dreamt you called
And woke up angry