Water

I drank two liters of water today
Hoping it'd make everything go away
And i'm drowning in my self deprecation
Don't mind me, i just need some patience
I hate when things change when i need them to stay

Everyone leaves, i don't need this much space
One step forwards always leads me to the same place
My heartbeats aren't mine anymore
Just leave me to lie on my bedroom floor
I have too many thoughts but nothing to say
And its too much, i don't know how to take it
Is it possible to be too hydrated?

Saving myself is harder than pretending to be someone else
And i feel alone
Changing my hair to fill the void for something that isn't there
And i'm on my own

Being outside is as good as the tv
I'm standing in front of you but you can't see me
And i'm trying to keep myself afloat
But, dude, i'm pretty sure i'm gonna need a bigger boat
Cause i'm sinking in all the stupid things i'm thinking

And its too much, i don't know how to take it
Is it possible to be too hydrated?
Saving myself is harder than pretending to be someone else
And i feel alone
Changing my hair to fill the void for something that isn't there
And i'm on my own

Saving myself is harder than pretending to be someone else
And i feel alone
Changing my hair to fill the void for something that isn't there
And i'm on my own

I drank two liters of water today
But it didn't make anything go away
And its taking a toll
I'm afraid i won't grow old
And i feel all of it in my bones
And i don't know how long i can let this go on for
Maybe i should drink some more water